Thoughts?

Seems I have been a wee bit sad; perhaps depressed the past few days.  Holidays tend to do that to me.  I know they shouldn't but even at almost 70; I cannot help myself.

I think my Mom was on my mind a lot.  I'm having a difficult time getting her death certificate so I can do the things that need to be done.  After I called for the third time, I was told in a few days.  It is a government piece of paper so who knows how long it will take.  Just that act, brought her to mind.  I think what I most regret is the wonderful life we could have had if she had not been so insecure and so mean.  I'm sure my own hard head made things a little worse.  Even so, I miss her.  I would have called her on Thanksgiving day.

Thanksgiving was a little lonely.  While I knew everyone had a place to go and the rest could not make it this far, I still missed them all.  We were invited two places but preferred to stay out of groups because of my low immunity.  Christmas they will all be home and we'll have a wonderful time.  

Now I feel better.  I've vented my depression and my sad feelings.  That's what a blog or a journal is good for.  When you write your feelings out, reread it for errors in the blog, your mind and heart releases it's bad vibes and the good vibes come in.  That's one of the reasons I started the blog back.  I'm glad when people read it; but it isn't necessary because it's more for me.